I asked myself this question every second of the day the week before I left.
“What am I doing?”
“Why do I want to leave the comfort of home?”
“Why can’t a comfortable life be enough?!”
And then for the two weeks of traveling I just finished yesterday, these questions went through my mind constantly:
“Why do I have to go home?”
“Why was I so worried about this?”
And now I am back, having to spend a whole week with out a guide, without a plan, and with way too much luggage. I am back to being terrified for what the next couple of months with hold. Back to wondering, “Why am I DOING this?!” Yet I know I would be even more unsettled if I had stayed home. I look forward to going to a place where people share my faith & my main goal in life.
I do not look forward to dragging my bags around town again for every person to laugh at.
And I am thankful to God for giving me this opportunity.